pain

I get thoughts tainted with voilence and death when things like this happen. Why must this happen at the very final semester? I worked so hard to redeem myself and they put a bullet through my head, a dagger right through my heart. Don't they know how much pain and suffering I had to battle to just to find the will to go on each day for the past many years? Some people do not deserve to live, some slowly lose the will to and some will take all of those who have inflicted pain onto him or her along.

thickfuckingmotherfuckers,always

Incompetent tutors are absolute cunts! Fucking losers.

Perhaps I will detail this post at a later stage as for now, I'm just fucking pissed off over the head, I'm completely numb.

I am at a lost for words.

no time to sleep

I was just a little guy with too much to think about.

Small town kid with a dream too big, I made it midway through and still plenty more to go. A few years ago, come to think of it, it had been quite a while now I thought I nearly set my foot there into the stuff of my dreams. Dreams they just were and nothing more. I got burnt like she warned I would, when the moth gets drawn too close to the fire. I wish I took her words for more than just cautionary tale from a girl about to give all that was worth to me. I ended up giving all that I was worth to her too. We both never made it through the storm sadly.

So here I am, small town kid grown big, smaller dreams to catch but alas, nevertheless with ever more to think about.