Wednesday, September 30, 2009

..is she there?

I am actually missing her at the moment,
and, I can't help but to keep thinking of her,
wondering... if she's thinking of me too,
but I can't let her know... not just yet.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

lil one

let her decide soon,
my yearning heart awaits,
end to my wandering,
not leave me pondering.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Cardigone

Curveballs. Life just gotta throw you curveballs. Something's really wrong with me as in there has been a prolonged pain near where my kidneys are. The doctor reckons it's just a pulled muscle but I doubt it. I'll be booking in an ultrasonic scan on Monday to check if everything's fine. Seriously, I'm worried shit but I'll just try to keep as positive as possible.

The other thing's that been bothering me is Ms cardigan girl. Had a bit of time to talk with her a lil more today and honestly, I couldn't see even the slightest hint of interest. I'll most probably will write off the possibility of courting her. It's not about being able to effortlessly be in a relationship, unless I'm willing to put up with a less than ideal one but I'm just the sort that if I can't see any hint of potential success I won't wanna invest my time, effort and feelings into her.

The other girl, who's taken, I could definitely see myself being with her but well, guess that's why she's already taken.

Good guys finish last boys, as good girls will never stay single for too long!

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

...Hello!!

and her name is A... :) i was nervous and it has really been a while since i've ever felt nervous talking to a girl. LOL, there goes the charming bit of me, sigh, but yea, butterflies in the stomach indeed!

...i seriously got to start going to class early as she'll usually hang out with the few boys after classes. A girl and a guy - easy to handle, a girl with 2 guys - not so easy.

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

spring i'm 'fraid not

I'm proper frustrated. Why does it have to be that the girls that I am actually attracted to will always happen to be in a relatiopnship? and it's always the case where I would only find out after I have fallen for her??

What a waste of bloody time, effort and hope!