never never land part 1
Thursday 10 april 2008
Gum trees, they make all the difference. I felt all nervous because I did not know how to feel at all. Like a little kid, I looked out the window at the gum trees which dotted the landscape while the taxi made it's way down to the city.
The morning sunlight was spectecular, something which I have always had a liking for. I watched as it paints the median strip along Flemmington Road with the occasional shadows of cyclists giving animation.
As I walked along that bluestone pavement in front of the law building, I can't help but to try to recall what had happened the day before, the months before because it felt like I never did left, it was like I was there just yesterday. I can't recall not being there the day before.
EL's place was just like it was, except for an addition of a red couch. Somehow it felt more familiar than the one I grew up in. I just knew where everything was, including myself.
"I don't know girl, this is just tough. I don't know. I don't know how to decide."
"Well, where do you see yourself raising your kids...?"
They did not believe I just flew in from work, it was like somehow or rather they refuse to believe that I actually chose to leave and was gone for the many months. Somehow, they knew better then I did.
I feel asleep during the graduation speeches.
Friday 11 April 2008
Fed Square looks much older than when I first saw it. I still think it's ugly.
And it feels surreal, like how the lifts at CH2 are already moving and the baristas at Lincontro are caucasian again? Full cirle, they were caucasians when I first came, and then they were Asians until I left. As I sipped my latte, I savoured every moment I could and for the first time, things became a little bit clearer. Slowly as I people watch, I saw more than just the street, I saw life and the moments I want to keep. Moments such as this.
I reached for the 2 hour ticket in my pocket but I never did take it out as it did not seem right because there it was, the city I miss so dearly. I just had to walk on. I wanted to.
Readings never did change a bit, that's the charm of the old place. It's like time stood still and I could just stand there and browse all the books that I want to.
As I made my way through Lygon, the day turns dark, and slowly I knew what I wanted, like what EL said the day before that in time, the decission will come by itself.
"Hey J! you know what???"
"Yea what??? You told me yesterday you had so much to tell me!"
"I've decided. I'm gonna let it all go."
"Gasp! really? Even your..."
"Even my five towers. It doesn't matter anymore. If it the price I have to pay, then let it be."
"I don't believe this??? You've changed!!!!!!! Is it really you? You would never had given up your five towers! I don't believe I'm hearing this!"
Neither did I, neither did I. Little did I realise, we were actually at the same place, Cicalata, when she placed her head on the table and looked at me in those puppy eyes. So much had happened since.
"Lets celebrate, we'll wake up early, I'll come get you and we'll go to the beach for breakfast! I still can't believe you are doing this! .....too bad I'll be in the States by then. But I'm still happy for you!"
Gum trees, they make all the difference. I felt all nervous because I did not know how to feel at all. Like a little kid, I looked out the window at the gum trees which dotted the landscape while the taxi made it's way down to the city.
The morning sunlight was spectecular, something which I have always had a liking for. I watched as it paints the median strip along Flemmington Road with the occasional shadows of cyclists giving animation.
As I walked along that bluestone pavement in front of the law building, I can't help but to try to recall what had happened the day before, the months before because it felt like I never did left, it was like I was there just yesterday. I can't recall not being there the day before.
EL's place was just like it was, except for an addition of a red couch. Somehow it felt more familiar than the one I grew up in. I just knew where everything was, including myself.
"I don't know girl, this is just tough. I don't know. I don't know how to decide."
"Well, where do you see yourself raising your kids...?"
They did not believe I just flew in from work, it was like somehow or rather they refuse to believe that I actually chose to leave and was gone for the many months. Somehow, they knew better then I did.
I feel asleep during the graduation speeches.
Friday 11 April 2008
Fed Square looks much older than when I first saw it. I still think it's ugly.
And it feels surreal, like how the lifts at CH2 are already moving and the baristas at Lincontro are caucasian again? Full cirle, they were caucasians when I first came, and then they were Asians until I left. As I sipped my latte, I savoured every moment I could and for the first time, things became a little bit clearer. Slowly as I people watch, I saw more than just the street, I saw life and the moments I want to keep. Moments such as this.
I reached for the 2 hour ticket in my pocket but I never did take it out as it did not seem right because there it was, the city I miss so dearly. I just had to walk on. I wanted to.
Readings never did change a bit, that's the charm of the old place. It's like time stood still and I could just stand there and browse all the books that I want to.
As I made my way through Lygon, the day turns dark, and slowly I knew what I wanted, like what EL said the day before that in time, the decission will come by itself.
"Hey J! you know what???"
"Yea what??? You told me yesterday you had so much to tell me!"
"I've decided. I'm gonna let it all go."
"Gasp! really? Even your..."
"Even my five towers. It doesn't matter anymore. If it the price I have to pay, then let it be."
"I don't believe this??? You've changed!!!!!!! Is it really you? You would never had given up your five towers! I don't believe I'm hearing this!"
Neither did I, neither did I. Little did I realise, we were actually at the same place, Cicalata, when she placed her head on the table and looked at me in those puppy eyes. So much had happened since.
"Lets celebrate, we'll wake up early, I'll come get you and we'll go to the beach for breakfast! I still can't believe you are doing this! .....too bad I'll be in the States by then. But I'm still happy for you!"
