Indescribable

Just when I thought that things couldn’t be messier, my world has just been transformed to a sort of ballet of quarter age drama with a bit more all rolled into one. Is it by coincidence or fate or simply accidental that she (not J) appeared as one of those random people display in Friendster? And is it by coincidence or fate or simply accidental that she is no longer attached? God knows how much I loved (love still) her and the moment I try to very well call it quits and move one this happens? Throw in my fascination with J at the moment and this all seem too much. Why? Is this to serve as a testament to re-enforce the fact that I am now willing to move on or is it a reminder of who I should and had truly love?