another conversation
J says:
heya
J says:
did lots of things today
The Unknown says:
like??
J says:
went to the beach in the morning for a coffeee
The Unknown says:
ohhh coool
J says:
i bought a take away and then sat on the beach to drink it
The Unknown says:
u alone?
J says:
then i went to have a manicure
The Unknown says:
reallly?
J says:
yeah... went alone
The Unknown says:
hehheh u just got paid
The Unknown says:
that;'s so cool
The Unknown says:
i wanna do that too
J says:
then i did some grocery shopping
The Unknown says:
did u get any icecreams?
J says:
and after that came home and cooked a big meal
J says:
nope
The Unknown says:
oh no
The Unknown says:
but i think the big meal made up for it
The Unknown says:
hehe
The Unknown says:
how big of a meal did u cook?
J says:
did i tell you that i am saving money>?
The Unknown says:
umm hmm
The Unknown says:
for marriage?
The Unknown says:
right??
The Unknown says:
and little Js?
J says:
so usually, on sundays, i cook a big big meal and then freeze it so I can have it for lunch every day
The Unknown says:
what!!!!!
The Unknown says:
really???
J says:
yeah
J says:
last week i made 1.5kg of pad thai
J says:
this week i made the same amount but of risotto
J says:
the week before was potato salad
J says:
hahaha.. i know i'm boring
J says:
eat the same thing everyday
The Unknown says:
ohhhhhhhh nooooooooo
The Unknown says:
i should have stayed back then
The Unknown says:
then we could share
The Unknown says:
hehehehehe
J says:
haha
J says:
it's good though, saves me heaps of money i guess
The Unknown says:
yea??
The Unknown says:
how much have u saved?
The Unknown says:
50%
J says:
hahaha not enough
The Unknown says:
more?
The Unknown says:
that's because????
J says:
hmm its more like 10%
The Unknown says:
hahahahahaa
The Unknown says:
so food isn;t ur main expenditure
J says:
coz things keep popping up
The Unknown says:
hhahahahaa
J says:
things that require $$
The Unknown says:
yea i knowwww
J says:
birthdays, events.. blah blah
The Unknown says:
least u know
The Unknown says:
it's not like me
The Unknown says:
i did a breakdown on the stuff i spend on in a day
The Unknown says:
and guess what??
J says:
yeah>
J says:
?
The Unknown says:
know what i spend on the most?
J says:
coffee?
The Unknown says:
that's one
The Unknown says:
but that's minimal
J says:
?
The Unknown says:
..coke!!!!!!!!!!!
J says:
ahhahahahaa
J says:
thats funny
The Unknown says:
i spend more than my lunch on coke
J says:
i hardly spend any cash during the week
The Unknown says:
3-4 cans a day
The Unknown says:
crap
The Unknown says:
more than petrol, more than lunch
J says:
unless I go out after work
J says:
hahaha
The Unknown says:
heheheh drinks then huh
J says:
don't really have much of a life anymore
The Unknown says:
same here
The Unknown says:
it sucks
The Unknown says:
it's like i just got realsed from prison
J says:
i don't mind it
J says:
it's like a new stage in life
The Unknown says:
hey
J says:
it's inevitable
The Unknown says:
u have quite a bit to look forward to
The Unknown says:
no it's not
J says:
i'm embracing it
The Unknown says:
well, for me, kl is literally almost empty now
The Unknown says:
really??
The Unknown says:
y?
J says:
because i'm ready
The Unknown says:
really?
The Unknown says:
u know i was in melb too
J says:
?
The Unknown says:
umm hmm
The Unknown says:
but not here
J says:
really
J says:
why?
The Unknown says:
because i guess in a way i;m constantly reminded of what i had before i went away
The Unknown says:
and also, i came back here, one of the reasons is that i would be better off here in a way
The Unknown says:
that was the decisive reason and definately part of the plan
J says:
yeah i know
The Unknown says:
and u and i know, plans don't walways work out
The Unknown says:
and u know me
The Unknown says:
hehehehe
J says:
hehe
The Unknown says:
and what happens when things dun work out
J says:
but we still make them...
The Unknown says:
yea
The Unknown says:
my life in melb was closer to ideal than it is for me here right now
J says:
aww is that why you miss it?'
The Unknown says:
nowadays i think i'm more concerned about balance
The Unknown says:
yes it is
The Unknown says:
it is
The Unknown says:
i know it beause
The Unknown says:
i actually stopped getting nightmares in melb
J says:
oh btw.. i got my graduation stuff
The Unknown says:
COOOLL
The Unknown says:
i've got an email saying they;ve sent it
The Unknown says:
so gotta wait till next week to find out, it's the long chinese new years hols here
The Unknown says:
you knwo what's brthering me J?
J says:
its on april the 10th
J says:
is that when urs is too?
The Unknown says:
i'm stressed out, and afraid that the choice i made is the one i would regret a couple of years later
The Unknown says:
yeap mine's on the same day!
The Unknown says:
...we should be rightttttt????
The Unknown says:
and i got it
J says:
why do you think u'll regret it?
The Unknown says:
because the bet is on which is the greener side
The Unknown says:
you know all those things we talked bout?
J says:
yup
The Unknown says:
i'm just worried that i would be able to achieve them more in aus than in malaysia
The Unknown says:
you know
J says:
you having serious doubts?
J says:
wowww
J says:
when did you realize all this?
The Unknown says:
and just before i left aus, i must admit, it was pretty comfy already
The Unknown says:
a month after i came back
The Unknown says:
u know on of the main reasons i came back
The Unknown says:
is because i know the possiblilty for a very very successful career is almost imminant in malaysia
compared to aus for me
The Unknown says:
that stil stands
The Unknown says:
but u know what J??
J says:
??
The Unknown says:
i'm seriously wondering
The Unknown says:
or rather i have serious doubts
The Unknown says:
that if i really want that???
J says:
wowww
The Unknown says:
no kidding
J says:
you've been hanging out with me and m too much!!!
The Unknown says:
here i am cocooned in the comfort of a nice car
The Unknown says:
and there i am
The Unknown says:
thiking how nice it is to walk on the cobbled laneways when it's just done raining?
The Unknown says:
you know
J says:
hmmm that's a tough one
J says:
the other reason is]
The Unknown says:
you know what i mean
J says:
straight after you finished studying you didn't break for holiday or anyone
J says:
you just dived head in to work
The Unknown says:
i did for a week
J says:
a week is nothing
The Unknown says:
yea but i was happy
The Unknown says:
when i first started work
The Unknown says:
then it slowly came
The Unknown says:
the realisation
J says:
you have to be on holidays until you feel bored out of your brains and really and charged to
worok
The Unknown says:
it's not about work J
The Unknown says:
it's about life
The Unknown says:
over here i'm so detached from it
The Unknown says:
u know u can be alone and in touch with life
The Unknown says:
good example is the coffee by urself on the beach
The Unknown says:
over here it's completely detached
J says:
but why can't you do that over there?
The Unknown says:
one., there's no beach in kl
J says:
can't you go for nice drives
The Unknown says:
two, the dynamics of the city is very very different
J says:
or walks in the mall
The Unknown says:
it's different
The Unknown says:
the way the city feels
The Unknown says:
you know
J says:
hmmm
The Unknown says:
i'm perfectly comffy in melb to take a stroll down to lygon and get myself a nice latte
The Unknown says:
but over here
The Unknown says:
it doesn't feel that way
J says:
hmmm.....
The Unknown says:
over in aus i can lay back and wathc the leaves falls and do my thinking and my plotting
The Unknown says:
here, i can';t
The Unknown says:
i think it really boils down to
The Unknown says:
what i want
J says:
can you substitute all that for something else now in KL?
J says:
perhaps curl up in bed and read a book
The Unknown says:
rather than what i can achieve
J says:
??
The Unknown says:
been doing that, curling up on a sofa in an air conditioned room watchig dvds
J says:
yeah that's alwyas nice to do
The Unknown says:
and messing about with my car at night
The Unknown says:
coz maybe that's all tat is
The Unknown says:
i;m serious pondering
The Unknown says:
if a really successful career is what that is gonna make me happy?
The Unknown says:
because i seriously don't feel too contented now
The Unknown says:
though i know i'm already ahead?
J says:
oh....
J says:
it's a toss up
The Unknown says:
hahahahah
The Unknown says:
messed up it s
J says:
maybe you won't know until you're in that situation
The Unknown says:
you're right in that sense
The Unknown says:
that's y i'm in such a mess
The Unknown says:
i can't make the distinctive judgement
The Unknown says:
and an informed choice
The Unknown says:
hate that
The Unknown says:
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
The Unknown says:
oh well to wrap things up
The Unknown says:
i think that i would only know the answer somewhere down the line
The Unknown says:
time will tell they say
The Unknown says:
i just hope that by that time it won't be too late to be back.
heya
J says:
did lots of things today
The Unknown says:
like??
J says:
went to the beach in the morning for a coffeee
The Unknown says:
ohhh coool
J says:
i bought a take away and then sat on the beach to drink it
The Unknown says:
u alone?
J says:
then i went to have a manicure
The Unknown says:
reallly?
J says:
yeah... went alone
The Unknown says:
hehheh u just got paid
The Unknown says:
that;'s so cool
The Unknown says:
i wanna do that too
J says:
then i did some grocery shopping
The Unknown says:
did u get any icecreams?
J says:
and after that came home and cooked a big meal
J says:
nope
The Unknown says:
oh no
The Unknown says:
but i think the big meal made up for it
The Unknown says:
hehe
The Unknown says:
how big of a meal did u cook?
J says:
did i tell you that i am saving money>?
The Unknown says:
umm hmm
The Unknown says:
for marriage?
The Unknown says:
right??
The Unknown says:
and little Js?
J says:
so usually, on sundays, i cook a big big meal and then freeze it so I can have it for lunch every day
The Unknown says:
what!!!!!
The Unknown says:
really???
J says:
yeah
J says:
last week i made 1.5kg of pad thai
J says:
this week i made the same amount but of risotto
J says:
the week before was potato salad
J says:
hahaha.. i know i'm boring
J says:
eat the same thing everyday
The Unknown says:
ohhhhhhhh nooooooooo
The Unknown says:
i should have stayed back then
The Unknown says:
then we could share
The Unknown says:
hehehehehe
J says:
haha
J says:
it's good though, saves me heaps of money i guess
The Unknown says:
yea??
The Unknown says:
how much have u saved?
The Unknown says:
50%
J says:
hahaha not enough
The Unknown says:
more?
The Unknown says:
that's because????
J says:
hmm its more like 10%
The Unknown says:
hahahahahaa
The Unknown says:
so food isn;t ur main expenditure
J says:
coz things keep popping up
The Unknown says:
hhahahahaa
J says:
things that require $$
The Unknown says:
yea i knowwww
J says:
birthdays, events.. blah blah
The Unknown says:
least u know
The Unknown says:
it's not like me
The Unknown says:
i did a breakdown on the stuff i spend on in a day
The Unknown says:
and guess what??
J says:
yeah>
J says:
?
The Unknown says:
know what i spend on the most?
J says:
coffee?
The Unknown says:
that's one
The Unknown says:
but that's minimal
J says:
?
The Unknown says:
..coke!!!!!!!!!!!
J says:
ahhahahahaa
J says:
thats funny
The Unknown says:
i spend more than my lunch on coke
J says:
i hardly spend any cash during the week
The Unknown says:
3-4 cans a day
The Unknown says:
crap
The Unknown says:
more than petrol, more than lunch
J says:
unless I go out after work
J says:
hahaha
The Unknown says:
heheheh drinks then huh
J says:
don't really have much of a life anymore
The Unknown says:
same here
The Unknown says:
it sucks
The Unknown says:
it's like i just got realsed from prison
J says:
i don't mind it
J says:
it's like a new stage in life
The Unknown says:
hey
J says:
it's inevitable
The Unknown says:
u have quite a bit to look forward to
The Unknown says:
no it's not
J says:
i'm embracing it
The Unknown says:
well, for me, kl is literally almost empty now
The Unknown says:
really??
The Unknown says:
y?
J says:
because i'm ready
The Unknown says:
really?
The Unknown says:
u know i was in melb too
J says:
?
The Unknown says:
umm hmm
The Unknown says:
but not here
J says:
really
J says:
why?
The Unknown says:
because i guess in a way i;m constantly reminded of what i had before i went away
The Unknown says:
and also, i came back here, one of the reasons is that i would be better off here in a way
The Unknown says:
that was the decisive reason and definately part of the plan
J says:
yeah i know
The Unknown says:
and u and i know, plans don't walways work out
The Unknown says:
and u know me
The Unknown says:
hehehehe
J says:
hehe
The Unknown says:
and what happens when things dun work out
J says:
but we still make them...
The Unknown says:
yea
The Unknown says:
my life in melb was closer to ideal than it is for me here right now
J says:
aww is that why you miss it?'
The Unknown says:
nowadays i think i'm more concerned about balance
The Unknown says:
yes it is
The Unknown says:
it is
The Unknown says:
i know it beause
The Unknown says:
i actually stopped getting nightmares in melb
J says:
oh btw.. i got my graduation stuff
The Unknown says:
COOOLL
The Unknown says:
i've got an email saying they;ve sent it
The Unknown says:
so gotta wait till next week to find out, it's the long chinese new years hols here
The Unknown says:
you knwo what's brthering me J?
J says:
its on april the 10th
J says:
is that when urs is too?
The Unknown says:
i'm stressed out, and afraid that the choice i made is the one i would regret a couple of years later
The Unknown says:
yeap mine's on the same day!
The Unknown says:
...we should be rightttttt????
The Unknown says:
and i got it
J says:
why do you think u'll regret it?
The Unknown says:
because the bet is on which is the greener side
The Unknown says:
you know all those things we talked bout?
J says:
yup
The Unknown says:
i'm just worried that i would be able to achieve them more in aus than in malaysia
The Unknown says:
you know
J says:
you having serious doubts?
J says:
wowww
J says:
when did you realize all this?
The Unknown says:
and just before i left aus, i must admit, it was pretty comfy already
The Unknown says:
a month after i came back
The Unknown says:
u know on of the main reasons i came back
The Unknown says:
is because i know the possiblilty for a very very successful career is almost imminant in malaysia
compared to aus for me
The Unknown says:
that stil stands
The Unknown says:
but u know what J??
J says:
??
The Unknown says:
i'm seriously wondering
The Unknown says:
or rather i have serious doubts
The Unknown says:
that if i really want that???
J says:
wowww
The Unknown says:
no kidding
J says:
you've been hanging out with me and m too much!!!
The Unknown says:
here i am cocooned in the comfort of a nice car
The Unknown says:
and there i am
The Unknown says:
thiking how nice it is to walk on the cobbled laneways when it's just done raining?
The Unknown says:
you know
J says:
hmmm that's a tough one
J says:
the other reason is]
The Unknown says:
you know what i mean
J says:
straight after you finished studying you didn't break for holiday or anyone
J says:
you just dived head in to work
The Unknown says:
i did for a week
J says:
a week is nothing
The Unknown says:
yea but i was happy
The Unknown says:
when i first started work
The Unknown says:
then it slowly came
The Unknown says:
the realisation
J says:
you have to be on holidays until you feel bored out of your brains and really and charged to
worok
The Unknown says:
it's not about work J
The Unknown says:
it's about life
The Unknown says:
over here i'm so detached from it
The Unknown says:
u know u can be alone and in touch with life
The Unknown says:
good example is the coffee by urself on the beach
The Unknown says:
over here it's completely detached
J says:
but why can't you do that over there?
The Unknown says:
one., there's no beach in kl
J says:
can't you go for nice drives
The Unknown says:
two, the dynamics of the city is very very different
J says:
or walks in the mall
The Unknown says:
it's different
The Unknown says:
the way the city feels
The Unknown says:
you know
J says:
hmmm
The Unknown says:
i'm perfectly comffy in melb to take a stroll down to lygon and get myself a nice latte
The Unknown says:
but over here
The Unknown says:
it doesn't feel that way
J says:
hmmm.....
The Unknown says:
over in aus i can lay back and wathc the leaves falls and do my thinking and my plotting
The Unknown says:
here, i can';t
The Unknown says:
i think it really boils down to
The Unknown says:
what i want
J says:
can you substitute all that for something else now in KL?
J says:
perhaps curl up in bed and read a book
The Unknown says:
rather than what i can achieve
J says:
??
The Unknown says:
been doing that, curling up on a sofa in an air conditioned room watchig dvds
J says:
yeah that's alwyas nice to do
The Unknown says:
and messing about with my car at night
The Unknown says:
coz maybe that's all tat is
The Unknown says:
i;m serious pondering
The Unknown says:
if a really successful career is what that is gonna make me happy?
The Unknown says:
because i seriously don't feel too contented now
The Unknown says:
though i know i'm already ahead?
J says:
oh....
J says:
it's a toss up
The Unknown says:
hahahahah
The Unknown says:
messed up it s
J says:
maybe you won't know until you're in that situation
The Unknown says:
you're right in that sense
The Unknown says:
that's y i'm in such a mess
The Unknown says:
i can't make the distinctive judgement
The Unknown says:
and an informed choice
The Unknown says:
hate that
The Unknown says:
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
The Unknown says:
oh well to wrap things up
The Unknown says:
i think that i would only know the answer somewhere down the line
The Unknown says:
time will tell they say
The Unknown says:
i just hope that by that time it won't be too late to be back.
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opportuniy cost. but then again why not make out the most of what you currenly have? :)
Perhaps, when you stop having expectations, this place will be a much better place to live in. That's how I did it anyway.
thank you to you both!
missarcastic, I am making the most of what I have, in the sense that it's almost like the big picture is just like what was planned, except, the details are all muddled, the brushstrokes are all wrong.
steph, I know what you mean exactly! All I have to say is that it's in our nature to hope and that's basically expecting. Having it real good here in KL many years ago before I left for Melb doesn't help with the expectations bit, if you now what I mean.
Thoughts sorted finally, the decission will be within the 3rd and 5th year, regardless of carreer, if I still feel that there is more to life than what I have then, I'm leaping back to Melb and live a simple life, least I know I tried. ;)
Steph, you hang in there too!
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